Journal just for me

Day 177

For Winter Solstice 2014 Sharry gave me a beautiful gift of a journal just for me.

She wrote sporadic entries...love notes for me to find and I was not allowed to write in it. She was so loving, creative and thoughtful. I miss her so incredibly deeply.  

FYI feel free to steal this idea for your SO. Here is a smattering of highlights I would like to share with my minimal thoughts in red. #LoveSharred

The journal opens essentially with this blog post followed by:

So yeah. I’ve been thinking. I’ve been thinking about whatever happens to you and I. Or maybe just me or you. Whatever happens in this life, I would like our future kids, and you, and Lola...and the universe. I would like the universe to know how much I love you and all the regular, everyday things that make our love so deep and full of magic. So I’m going to use this journal to write you love notes and then leave them for you to read. But I don’t want you to write back. At least not on these pages. Because I want this to be just for you. An eternal reminder of how much I cared for you. And how blessed I am to have you in my life.

I will never forget her love for me but I am so profoundly grateful for notes like these to remind me!

Love you always, Sharry 12/21/14

Happy Winter Solstice

Dear Bubby,

I love you so much. I love sleeping next to you and hearing your deep breaths. I love feeling your warm soft skin and watching your eyes flick open in the morning. I love your beautiful smile lines and I love the way you look at me. Some day, our bodies will probably ache, our skin will sag and wrinkle, and our minds will become forgetful. Before we start to fade away and decay, I just want you to know that I love every part of you. You are my other half. My soul mate. My eternal companion. You are the love of my life. Here’s to another year of love and struggle. I love you with all my heart. Happy 2015!

Dear Jared,

I wake up today thinking about how much I love you. I do that many days, but today I wrote it down. Love Sharry.

You are the silliest person I have ever met. And I love it. - Sharry

She was pretty dang silly too

Dear Jared,

The other day, you were reading some book about happiness something or other. I thought how well the two of you look together, Jare and happiness. -Sharry

Dear Jared,

Does it seem strange to you that even after 10 years together and 8 years of marriage, I am still so completely in love with you? Does it seem strange that I think about what you are doing and when we’ll get to be together again, every time we are separated? Does it seem strange that I sit around and think about all of the good qualities you have, and sometimes get jealous and wish I could be more like you? Does it seem strange that whenever something good happens to me I can’t wait to tell you, and anytime something bad happens to me I can’t wait to tell you? This is was entirely reciprocated. I still to this day can’t wait to tell her events from my day and long to be with her every moment away from work.

You are loving. You are reliable. You are fun, and funny, and forgiving. My life is so blessed because of you. -Sharry

“Unable are the loved to die, for live is immortality.” -Emily Dickinson

Dear Jared,

It’s pretty much impossible to make any plans for the future. I’ve been trying to plan out babies and houses, and hikes and let’s face it I have a lousy track record. But the one thing I know I can always plan on is you.

Love you forever -Sharry

This was immediately followed by this gem haha

Dear Jared,

You are one selfish jerk sometimes But i Still love you. -Sharry

One of the last entries

I love you baby boy. From a beautiful blue dot in the universe into eternity. You are home to me. -Sharry

I share these entries and our love because I think love when shared can generate love and gratitude in me and hopefully others.

JJ’s 6 month birthday is this Friday, crazy!

Grandma teaching JJ about her brown sugar...not really but a straw at least (o:

Playing with his daddy's favorite holiday drink